i can remember parking lot nights

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 04:12:37 GMT

me and my roomate (jillian) just bunked our beds and im on the top. its kinda scary and im not good at getting up and down. but ya jillian is the biggest whore i have ever met! shes always all over every guy she sees and she is always drunk!!!! i dont know if i can take her any more.... shes very annoying. plus she is always stealing my stuff and she smells really bad! oh well what am i gonna do?

JUST KIDDING. jill is cool. such a wonderful non slut like non smelly non annoying non drunk kind of a roomate :)

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 06:40:23 GMT

sean cam to bring me my fridge and microwave today. im excited. the me and sean and erin and amanda went and got antonios. i bought books and they charged me the canadian price so i went to het my money back and they messed up again and i ended up w/ $15 extra :) then i went to the football game, we won 30-20 and they had fireworks which were awsome. i hung out w/ manda jess josh jp lisa emily laura and sig.... i can not for the life of me spell her name. but it was a lot of fun. and now im off to bed.

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 17:57:15 GMT

today was my first day of class at umass. i got lost going to one of my classes cause i couldnt find the building it was in...i later found out that i was standing in it.lol. imliving at the motor lodge on frat row and i dont have a roomate. i was kinda mad about that but i like it now i have my own bathroom. i dont have the internet which is why i havnt been on to talk to you people but i should get it w/ in a couple of weeks....and thats about it :)

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 05:09:47 GMT

well i just ruined everything with derek and hes going back to school in a couple of days and im not ever gonna talk to him or see him again....he hates me.....

and everything was going so good too :(

i suck

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 07:40:05 GMT

went to the club tonight w/ andrea and alex, i saw alia, joe, joji, kira, chris, danielle, andy, kelly, amanda and justin. justin was quite touchy feely and then he sprayed me w/ a beer. andrea and alex left early so i went home w/ joji and we went to the diner and i saw 2 very cute boys and they were all looking at me and stuff and i talked to them and i wanted to hook up w/ both of them but i didnt :( justin and kenny got yelled at by a cop and the cop was like if you make me chase you 2 things are gonna happen 1. ill beat the shit out of ya and 2. ill arrest ya........it was actually quite funny. i had a good night.

i miss Derek

i miss my nanny

i miss my grandpa

i miss maine

i miss my mom

i miss Derek

i miss my life

I'M BACK

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 16:34:11 GMT

maine was awsome! johnny is still hot and his girlfriend looks like a cyclopse or a troll .lol. that made me happy :) i went on a whale watch, went shopping, went swimming everyday but one, and got to be around tons of fun people for the week.

i really wish i was still there.

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 06:25:10 GMT

MAINE

see you in ten days!

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 04:58:03 GMT

derek owes me $13 and he wont give it to me....im not too happy about that.

i saw napolean dynamite tonight and it was actually pretty good. i had lots fun w/ derek today .... i loves him and that makes me sad :(

ahhhh hes so perfect i hate this! love stinks!

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 03:59:24 GMT

i dont ever wanna live anymore.

i need lipo sooo bad....i hate being fat :(

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 05:28:29 GMT

i went to see the notebook today. saddest movie ever! it made me miss my grandfather so bad and derek too of course...i cried :(

i was in an alright mood today until i got home from being out w/ alex and andrea and then people just had to squash it. why wont people let me do what i want to do...im not hurting myself or anybody else so i dont get what the problem is. i feel like everyone is mad at me and they are all gonna be watching me so im gonna be all awkward....i dont know i swear people just dont want me to be happy sometimes.

and once again i have to say SCHOOL SUCKS! i really dont know if im gonna be going to school in the fall. and now i have to call umass to get a schedule and a room cause im gonna need classes and a place to sleep if i do go there...its all more trouble then its worth. i never wanted to go to college anyway.

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 04:19:18 GMT

i need to figure out a way to get my grandmother to let me and derek stay in the cape house alone for a weekend ............... HELP! give me some good ideas :)

::sadface::

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 22:45:04 GMT

mcdoogle died today...so sad my furry fatass is gone

AHHHHH

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 22:31:01 GMT

i might not be going to school anywhere in the fall

mcdoogle is sick and at petco

my parents are getting divorced again

and i miss derek more then anything ever

but amber did give me a super cool cd today :)

drunky mcdrunkerson

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 19:11:00 GMT

ok so people say i was drunk the last time we went and i said i was buzzed...i still say i was buzzed but...last night i was drunk! and not fun cute drunk, stupid drunk. i couldnt hold my head up nevermind stand up and i couldnt see. we were there for about 2 and a half hours and i thought we were there for about 20 mins. i think i kissed some kid and some other kid danced w/ me while i was dancing w/ joe and was like pulling my skirt up. some random girl was trying to dance w/ me... i dont know....i dont remember a lot. they all took turns watching me and sitting w/ me, well joji, kenny, leo, and joe did they were very sweet. and kenny, justin, and amanda brought me to a bathroom and that was wonderful and then joe carried me to the car cause i couldnt feel my leg :( and thats pretty much all i remember from last night....

justin mcdoogle

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 05:50:05 GMT

i bought a hampster today!!!! his name is justin mcdoogle but i just call him mcdoogle or doogie. kira calls him justin cause hes fat and furry like justin :) cutest hampster ever! so me and joij and lauren and kira and daniel were driving back from auburn where we had bought ice cream and other stuff for an ice cream party and we were on air port hill and daniel's car broke down... so there we are 5 girls standing in the rain at 11 at night having no clue how to fix the car and trying to push it up hill while tons of cars drive by and no one stops to help so kira calls her dad... and right after she does that some guy in a car came up and some guy came walking across the street and they dont seem to know what they are doing either, so kiras dad shows up and they back the car into some driveway and we call triple A. like an hour after the car breaks down we finally get back to jojis house and she realizes that she doesnt have her keys or the movie she rented and they are in daniel's car...luckily jess was home and she let us in....and by now the ice cream is liquid so we didnt get to have the ice cream party :( but today was fun, i had a good time and we can always eat the ice cream tomorrow! oh ya, and i got to see derek today which always makes me happy.

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 05:47:22 GMT

today was a good day! i woke up and derek came over and we had some fun and then we went to wendys and he payed for me and i wouldnt give him his money back. lol. then i came home and lia came to pick me up at 5 so we could go see incubus. we stood in line for like 2 hours and it was soooo hot but we finally got in and we were pretty close and it was air conditioned so that was good. incubus played one song and had to stop cause we broke the barrier, but they came back on a little while later and it was awsome. the back drop thing was all star lights and then brandon took off his shirt...uhh ken doll marks...yum. there were these guys that i swear were from austrailia next to us and they were so much fun and so hot and me and lia wanted to eat them so bad. they saved us from mosh pits and one of them was like my balls hurt....i dont know why, but it was funny....and then he took off his shirt nice body! had his nipples peirced and i was like ooo and his friend was like she got a little excited. then after the concert we were walking back to the car and these people were like wanna hot dog and i was like ya and they were like $2 and i said how about $.30 and they gave me one. yay! good times : )

there were two things that sucked about todat tho

1. i have a huge zit on my cheek a deffinate hermine and...

2. joji and lauren dont want to go to the cape w/ me : (

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 06:38:14 GMT

so last night was fun. i got a little drunk and met some austrailian boys while waiting in line... we never got in which sucked, but oh well. me kira and joji went back to the parking lot and i fake flashed and mooned people while they walked by. lol. i tried to take justins pants off...he loved it. then we went to the kenmore diner and kenny bought me food : ) i walked in on a guy in the bathroom looking for joji. then we went to drop off chris and kenny and i walked kenny to his car and i gave him a couple of little smooches. i was a little hug happy and more then willing to express my love to everyone!

oh and i got to spend time w/ the most wonderful amber..we went to friendlys and target and we had a super sing along to dashboard!!!!!

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 01:06:08 GMT

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends I know what they say

But they don't know me

Do they even know you?

All the things you hide from me

All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

It's nice to know you were there

Thanks for acting like you cared

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

so much for my happy ending

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 21:02:35 GMT

so i got accepted to UMASS and ... i dont know if i should go.

HELP!!!!!!!

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 01:04:39 GMT

fuck it...i dont care what happens to me anymore.

YUMMY

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 07:06:45 GMT

Boys, Boys, Boys!!!!

I love em : )

thank you joji for making me go tonight...i had tons o'fun.

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 03:42:49 GMT

if its your birthda and you know it clap your hands

if its your birthday and you know it clap your hands

if its your birthday and you know it, and you really want to show it, if its your birthday and you know it clap your hands!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMBER, YOU OLD HAG!!!

Wed, 26 May 2004 05:06:27 GMT

Love 19423: im goin to bed hore so wake ur slutty ass up at 10 AM biotch ...

amber - "does your belly button ever stink?"

i have such random friends :)

HELL YA

Tue, 25 May 2004 06:10:00 GMT

okay so tonight was really good. i went to jillians w/ liz and andrea. liz hit a guy with the cue ball and andrea stuck the pool stick up some kids ass....sooo funny. then will came and we made teams: me and will against andrea and liz...we won! then we get in the car and will is just sooooooooooooooo hot. i have been wanting something like this to happen for like 3-4 years now. nothing big happened but i loved him rubbing me, playing w/ my hair, tickeling me and stuff. good times : )

Wed, 19 May 2004 05:21:28 GMT

Well, I saw you with you hands above your head, spinning around, trying not to look down, but you did, and you fell, hard on the ground. Then you stumbled round for a good ten minutes, And I said I`ve never seen anyone look so dumb before And you laughed and said “I still know how to turn you on though”

And you are the only one who, drags me, kickin and screamin trough fast dreams. And you are the only one who, Knows exactly what I need

And I probably forgot to tell you this like the time when I forgot to tell you About the scar, remember how uncomfortable that made you feel See you`re not what I expected, but you`re the only one who knows how to Handle me, and you`re such a great kisser, and I know that you agree I hope you can forgive me for that time when I put my hand between your legs and said it was small, cause it`s really not at all. I guess there`s just a part of me that likes to bring you down just to keep you around, Cause the day you realize how amaizing you are, you`re gonna leave me!

And you are the only one who, holds my hair back when I`m drunk and get sick And you are the only one who

Knows exactly what I need

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okay so i was driving on the highway with lauren and joji and we heard a beep, so i look over at the guy in the lane next to us, and what i saw was just....ewwwww. this yucky 30 something year old guy was holding his dick in his hand and waving it around. i was like who does that? then i almost threw up.